Heart-Broken.

This week I have been hurt.

I am HEART-BROKEN.

One of my bestest Friend and I had a fallen out that was fatal.

I rather not type anymore on the subject.

A major part of me being HEART-BROKEN, is due to the death of of my Boss, Friend, Granny & #1 Supporter!

I have not been able to grieve about her yet.

It actually did not hit me until today.

Even writing this I am choking up.

She died on Sunday from Cancer.

She fought long and hard.

She was such a loving woman.

She always encouraged me to strive for success and my education.

Even to the point where she told people she was my Grandma and I never disagreed.

I should have, would have and could have done a lot of things before her death...

But I am happy with the memory I have of her...

Last time I saw her was at my Bro's college Graduation.

Mrs. Sharon Graham!

I miss and love you, oh so MUCH!

I am happy you left us during your FAVORITE MONTH!

BLACK HISTORY MONTH!!!!

I use to love the knowledge she spat out!

I dedicate this posting to you!

Sincerely,

J. Spiff

This is a pic from the last time I saw her...

Such an inspiration...

The Raft is full... Or I am pushing PPL OFF!!!

Life is 'Full of Lessons' galore!

I have learned a ton this week alone.

I learned:

1. Blind is love. Love is blind

2. Ignorance is still bliss

3. Everybody can't come

My journey (or your journey) is yours...

I am always playing captain 'Save-A-Hoe'

When I need to be my NUMERO UNO priority!

Well this was a well-needed wake-up call!

I have always tried to pick up on the daily lessons God throws at me!

I seem to be catching them...

But 'Throwing It Back' is revealing I have learned and applied it to my life and that I am ready for the next one...

I seem to still have the ball in my hand!

That's an issue...

Grow SOME balls SPIFF!!!!!!

ARRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Balls have grown!

Here I go.

I am ready for the next chapter and some new characters!

Slow Sangin' & Flower Bringing!

Sheesh... I have been M.I.A!!!!

Well.... I graduated and I am have a bachelors in Journalism & Media Studies with a Minor in Africana Studies.

Yay, I guess... Honestly I need a Masters for the simple fact I have ran into a lot of dumb ass Bachelor Holders.... I know... I seem rude as hell, but I like my efforts to be worth something... If Bachelor Degrees have gone down in value... Well I rather be

striving for the next best thing...

So let's fast-forward into my life.... I have 3 jobs with which I am in love with all of my positions and the Guap (YES MONEY) I am making... My pockets are at the buffet; F*&# Cheesecakes Nicki.. LOL!

I am grateful for the opportunities that have been presented to me.

I intend to get my Youtube page FINALLY poppin' now.

Short-Term goals:

1. Permit

2. Driving lessons

3. Driving tests

4. License

5. Reward myself with a mac and final cut pro!

6. Create my music catalog online

I hope that I can get majority of these completed by the end of May!

My dream check is $9000

And I intend on working with a major celeb or joining a major writing group.

P.S. I have given up singing until I am have dedicated 6 months to my vocal coach!

I am BACK!

I.O.U. Ft. Joe Spiff

Yes I was apart of there mixtape project like 3 or 4 months ago!

These fellas are making MOVES and are VERY serious about their CRAFT!

They are Dope and INCREDIBLY TALENTED!

Every time I watch them perform they AMP up the CROWD!

CHECK OUT THERE WEBSITE & Download the mixtape here http://www.insideouruniverse.com/

Intern-CAREER!

YUP-YUP!

My First College Internship...

A brother worked his way to getting FREE.. YES I SAID FREE STUDIO TIME!!!

HOLLA AT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I must have a gift for singing and songwriting FOR REAL!!!!

I am this close to accomplishing my 2 MAJOR goals!!!

1. My 1st check must be in the THOUSANDS!!!!!!

2. Conference with KANYEEEZY HIMSELF!!!

OOOOOO, I am SOOOOOO CLOSE!!

I Pray Every NITE & I Have created TUBS of Lemonade w/ all the lemons that come my way!!!

You have to be OPTIMISTIC, DRIVEN & CHARMING in order to make moves!!!

At least that is how I see it!

In this process, I am questioning EVERY Friend I HAVE!... I need to make sure the REAL ones stay by my side and others who was never for me... Stay Out of my way!

More Money more PROBLEMS (STRAIGHT-UP) and the phony folks that is going to be at my door after my accounts FLOOD will be OUTRAGEOUS! SMH...

But I am thinking too FAR AHEAD!!!!

This Monday could be a MAJOR step for me!

WISH ME LUCK!!!

S.B...SENIOR-FEST!

Lately, I have been HAVING TOO MUCH FUN!!!
I have no shame... THIS IS MY LAST TIME IN SCHOOL! As far as I Know!!!

I am graduating in a couple of weeks and Have already purchased my CAP&GOWN like a THUG!

HERE WE GO!!!!

I can't wait to get out of school and focus on songwriting full time.. But in the mean time and between times... I AM ENJOYING MY SENIOR FINAL FUCKING YEAR!!!

Yup I said IT!

I GOT MY TWO PARTNERS BY MY SIDE! Jach-Kills& Kee-KILLS! LOL!

THEY and I have devoted to enjoying every moment of our FINALS DAYS!!!

EVERYDAY we have LAUGHTERS BEYOND & WILD, RANDOM SPORADIC DAYS!

WE ALL WILD OUT EVERY & ANY CHANCE WE DO!

No One KNOWS EXACTLY WHAT WE DO...

& IT AIN'T THEIR BUSINESS!!!! BONG!!!! Imma throw up some pics AIGHT!

PEACERZ!

Thuggin' Ain't EASY!

So here we go!

This little Songwriter from East Orange, NJ is still striving for EXCELLENCE!

I wish I could get ppl to see How good I am... Hmm What can I do?

I feel in my SPIRIT if I could just have a MINUTE!!!! ONLY A MINUTE w/ Kanye!

I could sway him!

I know that this sound sooooo CLICHE'!

But I am soooooooo SERIOUS!

My music is a bit contagious to a listeners ear!

I just need to tug harder at my opportunities!

This year is the YEAR to MOVE MOUNTAINS!!!!

Not only am I coping a Degree, but also a CAREER!!!

LETS MAKE IT HAPPEN!

*Football Gut BUMP!*

LOL!

P.S. My youtube page shall be revealed SOOON!!!! YAY!