Showing posts with label Depressed. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Depressed. Show all posts

Friday, January 2, 2009

SHIZZLE has FINALLY HIT THE FAN!


ER-KAY!


So I am blessed and thankful for another year.
But a state of Depression has definitely bestow upon me.
I created this blog for only entertainment purposes of events in my life.
Right now I am definitely not feeling what's going on in my life, besides my:


  1. Health

  2. Families Health

  3. Shelther, Clothing and Food

  4. REAL Friends and way more



I think that I need to disappear for a while... not from blogging,
But from the folks around me! Seriously!!!
Like... I need to LOCATE THE SPIFF!
I have two parties to attend (MY SiS and My Cuz) and then I will cut myself off.
Probably cutting ppl off is not the answer to all of my solutions.

I Sense that maybe others are not the problem... probably it is me...
What if has always been me!?WTF!!!
Maybe i should cut myself off.
I feel that through all of my issues I am losing myself.
I feel as if I am imposing myself upon others.
I think I need to go into seclusion and come back Bigger and Better!
YES!
That is the answer!
(I am making this up as I go along!)
I need to FIND MYSELF!
BECAUSE!!! DEALING WITH FOOLISH FOLKS & MY FOOLISH SELF HAS DEFINITELY TAKEN A TOLL ON MY IDENTITY!
I HATE THIS SHIT!
I KNOW ME... WHY ISN'T MY SELF-ACTUALIZATION NOT ACTIVATING!???



Cody Chesnutt