So...

Have you ever felt like you put soo much love, work, and time into building?

No matter what you are building...

And then before you can feel proud it is just ripped away from you...

That's how I feel sometimes...

I feel I do for other's all the time, but rarely do people do for me...

I REFUSE to be SELFISH to other's...

And i normally don't expect someone to give me becuase I gave to them...

For example...

I gave one of my friends 2 blazers, this Christmass from Urban Outfitter's. $20 bucks a piece, but they were originally $40 to 80 bucks.

When I made her aware that I was getting her a gift she immediately went searchng for my gift!

That Pissed me off sooo much... (I probably shouldn't have told her that she was in mind)

But I felt the gift was a pitty gift and not from the heart...

Then on top of that it was a shirt that cost $12...

Now I don't care about the price or the quality... But She didn't mean to get it... She forced her pockets to manage ANYTHING!

KEYWORD: ANYTHING!...

I became soo vexed that we had a 2 minute argument and I decided to drop it, because it was going nowhere!

The reason I mentioned it to her was to initially get her hopes up of recieving something real nice from me...But her gift spoiled...

See what people don't know about me...

Is that I am not difficult at all... I love $0.99 cards with 4 words and personal paragraphs... I think that is awesome that ppl take time to write to me... It really makes me feel GREAT!

But people think I am sooo materialistic and have to either push to impress me...

She gave me the shirt and claimed her reasn for picking it was becuase it matched my new kicks....With which it didn't...

My point is... I give from my heart...

PPL don't have to give me material objects, by you just giving me a chance is more than enough... Calling me to just call, or writing me to just write, or visiting me to just visit makes me HAPPY!...

I would hate for anyone to think that they and I are not on the same level or that they can't associate with me...

I am MAN just like you!

I just had to write this down...

DANG!

Where have I been???

MY BAD YA'LL!!!!!

INCOGNITO!!!

So...Your Boy has def been in the Studio... YES!

THE STUDIO... Haters' Greet my BACK! LOL!

I am thinking about starting a youtube show looking for, "SpiFFSter's New Bestfriend!"

I have met many candidates... But I got a trust issue!.... Everyone can't be you BESTFRIEND! NAH MEAN!

Well that enough intro...

So... I want to address Sexuality!

LMAO!....SOUNDS SO DIRTY!

Anyways...

Why must we all identify with what a male or female is suppose to act like?

What does that even mean?

The other day I was invited to go to a friends Dinner that was suppose to be a whole bunch of folks and it ended up being, Three ladies and I... I had no problem with it.

(But I know some dudes who would detest this!)

While we were in the car.... I had been explaining how having a dog is similar to having a child...

I had supporting examples such as cleaning up feces and I explain how I hate doing that... And one girl in the car was like, "Stop being a girl about it."...

Now she said this not in a tone of sarcasm...

I replied, " What man do you know that like cleaning shit? Cuz, I have never met any MAN claiming, How cleaning shit makes his day.... Or it's the best thing in the world!" She replied, " I am just saying..."

I changed the subject at her ignorance.

Most men don't even like cleaning baby shit! LOL!

But I hate that men and women have to act a certain way.

I mean when it comes to etiquette of the leg-crossing and the door-opening.... That is all UNDERSTANDABLE....

But when the comment is made that, " Men don't Gossip"... Not only is that false, but that is such an ignorant, umbass GENERLIZATION upon a group of people!

My thing is.... Woman and Men are people... Some may be a lil more feminine or masculine than others, but that should never label them as being less ladylike or half a man!

(unless it has to do with etiquette or mannerisms)

We as people should stop looking for pin-points to JUDGE one another because a single task was not fulfilled to the standards we know...

It is time to stem from what we know and try to learn more...

You can never have enough knowledge!

ANGRY BIG GIRLS!!! FEED ME ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! LOL!!!

Yoooo-kay!

So lately I have been observing Big Girls!
I have soo many incidents.... especially with Big Black Girls!
The terms Big Black Girls does not only have to do with size... But age also...
So this includes the skinny, no booty -having, flat-chest, sunni- wearing, hood fabulous with a six-pack girls too!

So i was on the bus one morning (on my way to school) and I always try to either sit near the window or in the back... because when the bus get crowded (which tends to happen) I try not to put myself in a position where I will be forced to get up for an older, pregnant or disabled person.
Usually i do, but I try to find ways to not have to stand up with my crotch or butt in someones grill!
Moving along, this day I sat near the window at the front two-seater!
The bus was packed and the three-side seats had a man and ANGRY BIG GIRL # 1 sitting on both of the ends. Now this girl had to be about in her early 20's, caramel skin, a real pretty face and big all over...
This other ANGRY BIG GIRL # 2 got on the bus and notice the only available seat in between the old man and ANGRY BIG GIRL # 1...
*Mind you, ANGRY BIG GIRL # 2 was only thick in the waste... Shorty had a FATTY for DAYS!...(HEAVEN)*

So She turn around in fron of the seat... I thought she was just gonna stand, but later on, I found out she was aaiting those two folks to RE-position their seat adjustments for her CURVES!... SHe was TWEAKING!

So... She plopped her BIG AZZ down and ANGRY BIG GIRL # 1 was TICKED!!!
ANGRY BIG GIRL # 2 noticed that is was uncomfortable and shifted her body to face the front of the bus leaving ANGRY BIG GIRL # 1 staring at her back!
Now here was what had me dying!

ANGRY BIG GIRL # 1 had had the "FED UP BLACK WOMAN LOOK ON HER FACE" mixed with, "NO THIS STUPID BITCH JUST DID NOT SIT HERE!"
ANGRY BIG GIRL # 1 had to have stared at ANGRY BIG GIRL # 2 back for about 5 seconds... Then rolled the SHIT outta her eyes and turned away!

ANGRY BIG GIRL # 2 must have felt her eyes on her, becuase as soon as ANGRY BIG GIRL # 1 turned away she turned around with the "YES I SAT MY FAT ASS HERE" mixed with the, "NOW WHAT THE FUCK YOU GONNA DO" look!
I was laughing my ass off... The first thing I thought about is only black woman could pull this shit off!
They forever beefing with each other!!!

Moving along...
I love Big woman... Would i ever date a big girl... it is possible. I had a few big girls in I may have had a thing for... No names though! LOL!
But I hate whe Big girls tell jokes about their weight.
It's like we know you are sort of insecure, but have some self respect. That is like me being in front of a crew of White folks cracking jokes about my skin complexion. It is really unattractive!
If you feel so insecure change your weight...
I picked this song on my page because... I like going to parties and seeing all the BIG GIRLS take over the dance floors and all the twigs fall-Back!
LOL!
BIG GIRLS ARE DOING IT BIG THOUGH

Things that Big Girls NEED TO STOP DOING!

1. Ordering Mad Food just cause you BIG!
2. Worrying about skinny girls... They Jealous
3. Fighting... You have super duper Strength!
4. Wearing tight Shirts... Escially if you got the tummy... To many parachute shirts out there!
5. Showing your crack, especially if you ass is flat or stretch marky!

And just know that you guys ROCK! WHOOOO HOOOOO! BACK IT UP BIG MAMA! LMAO!

Till Death Do us PART!? Umm... Hold Up Pastor!

Yooooooo!

Dang...

I have not been here in like 21 days and 8 hrs! LMAO!...

That is soooo not precise but whatever!

So Tell me why...

One of my CLOSEST FEMALE FRIENDS JUST GOT...

Hitched, Married, Tied the Mutha FRUCKIN KNOT!

And yes, I typed "FRUCKING!"

She is my age... Yes 20, oh no she just turned 21... But still!

She is nevertheless married!

WOW!

It couldn't have been me!

I am sooo HAPPY FOR HER THOUGH!

Other girls walking around with these promise rings and shit, IF I MAY ADD!

Talking about how they are engage...

NEWS FLASH! Not trying to mess up any Brotha's Flow...

But ladies.... A PUBLIC ANNOUNCEMENT:... IT IS A GIMMICK! ALL OF YA'LL DUMB DUMBASS'S HAVE BEEN PUNK'D...LMAO!

Are you serious?

One of my homies, was the the best man and his speech went something like, "Nah mean, for my bestfriend to get married is a huge thing and MAD dudes still trying to be pimps and players, give that up and get married!"... I BLAMED THAT SPEECH ON THE Ah-Ah-Ah- Ah-Ah -Alcohol!....

SHIIIIIIIIITTTTTT! He was tweaking!

Nope Not getting married until my NUTS DROP!LOL!

My speech would have went more like, "Gentlemen it is time to give up on the Jump-off's, Freak-a-leaks, Side-Chicks, Sideline ho's, Smuts, Oochie Wally-Wally's and all of the wonderful displays and look for the "One!"

I want to know...

Is anyone really ready to get married...?

Don't think about the apartment and future!...

Just married... Are you ready Males and Females to tie the knot and settle down!??

I promise next post will be : ANGRY BIG GIRLS!

LMAO!!!

WELL-OOO-kay

Time and Time again...
I am called a hater...
I am told I am too Sarcastic and rude...
I say things that ppl just think about...
And I am too confident...
OH FUCKING WELL!!!! LMAO!

Seriously!
Like...I have some more petpeeves to relinquish from my earlier list...

1. Why the FUCK, (excuse my french...lmao) do you have a CHIRP and are speaking SUPER FUCKING LOUD!? TURN THAT SHIT OFF!


2. Don't ask me questions about what happened in the past... Like if I was suppose to do something for you... And I forgot.... Don't ask me why I didn't do it....Cuz I might curse your stupid ass out! Lets focus on the future... What we can do now to solve the problem!


3. Don't come around me talking about how someone dresses like... I don't give a Damn! Not everyone has money... DUMBASS!


4. Hood Folks.... Boys and Girls... WHAT THE FUCK YOU STARING AT ME FOR!!??? SHIT!


5. Little kids on Myspace that constantly request for me to be their friend... And there pictures shows ..."them throwing up a PEACE sign with and stupid ass grin to the side.... or the PEACE sign to there back and their leg thrown up in the air... WTF!


6. I am trying to get over losing someone in my life (not to death)...and ppl keep on asking me about them!


7. Don't call me in the middle of the night... Talking about how you want to CONFRONT ME! Confront DEEZ (gesture: showing me grabbing my private part!)

Next post is about Angry Big Girls!....lol....BYE!

Emo?

RoRoRoooo-kay

I find myself going through a range of emotion in daily ...

One minute I am happy, sad, mad, lonely, social and in all I am just MOODY AS HELL!!!

I think I miss my bestfriend... But I am done... for good.

I need me a girlfriend.

I thought I could do with out one...

I am noticing how lonely I can get...

Everyone one i know is involved and never have time for me

I notice myself CLING-ING unto to folks and I am too conceited and old to be doing that SHIT!

I need me a girlfriend to cling onto... I have been trying to say I can do without one

and just flirt and mess around occasionally

But that is not enough

I am educated, still in school, got a job, and I look good...

I am proper and can attempt being hood for like a second...

Why aren't girls flocking or knocking my door?

I am def an eligible bachelor.

WTF!?

They want the blunt smelling, long loc's wearing, pants saggin, no job-having, about 5 baby-mama's dude!

Again...WTF!?

I just turmed 20 and most of these clubs raised there ages for males.... Girls 18 but dudes 21 or 23.... Like WTF!!!!???

I NEED'S ME A WIFEY!!!

smh... this SUCKS!

A freaking FRIDAY AND I AM TYPING THIS SHIT!

Too iRk'D!

mmmk...







1st i have to Say I am SO PROUD TO BE ALIVE FOR HISTORY TO TAKE PLACE IN FRONT OF MY EYES... will blog about this at a later date...



So...

I need the bloggers advice...
My X-Best Homie... Girlfriend is irking my nerves...
I am trying to be mature... But she is pushing my buttons...
Today I called my so-called, FART FACE OF A FRIEND, from my job
and her FUGLY FACE GIRL picked up the damn phone saying, "that Fart Face is in the shower..."

The she hung up on me!!!

I was HEATED LIKE the The batch of chocolate Chip cookies my Pops bought (last week)that I burnt three different Times!LOL!

No but Seriously...
I don't like her STUPID ASS!!!
I have been trying to avoid being immature about the situation, but..
Recently on Facebook the Fugly Face had the audacity to comment on pics of the Fart Face who was dancing with my cousin...
Fart Face comments were like, "I am gonna throw up.... No I already did!"....

She put those comments of two Different pics of my cuz and Fart face dancing...
Then she try to call my cuz Fat....
So I have been Boiling trying to let the SHIT Slide...
But I need to do something QUICK!

REVENGE is not my thing... Well!!! I try not to make it my THING!

BUT THAT FUGLY FACE SHIT... Is driving me to do some shit I ain't trying to do!

So here are my ideas...

• Make a new Album on Facebook full of pics of my Alleged Best Fart Face and label it, " My Best Friend Can get Any Girl She Want!"and put mad pics of Fart Face and every and any girl she ever took a pic with...the wait for. Fugly Shit Face to comment them all... Cuz her STUPID ASS WILL!and deleted those Shits and promote the album on my status ... every hour on the hour!

Consequences... I will be making Fart Face look like a Pimp... Which she could def do Reverse Psychology and m,ake this Shit all my Fault!

• Or... Hook Fart Face up with this SEXY ASS GIRL I know that she messed with before and have the relationship sealed and kick Shit Face to the Curb... I know how to do it...I really do...

Consequences... What if Sexy girl and Fugly Face fight and go to jaill... My conscience... or What if sexy girl steals Fart Dace and turns out to be just like Fugly Face!

• Or Be the bigger person and leave those Fugly Farty Shirt Tart FACES alone!

I need Advice BLOGGERS AROUND THE WORLD!